We are very good at preparing to live, but not very good at living. We know how to sacrifice ten years for a diploma, and we are willing to work very hard to get a job, a car, a house, and so on. But we have difficulty remembering that we are alive in the present moment, the only moment there is for us to be alive.
Today I had a showing in a gated community that uses a person over intercom to gain access. The client that I was showing it to was already there, I drive up to the intercom and tell them the address and they said it doesn’t exist. Annoyed, I tell her it does because I’ve showed the property before. She still won’t let me in.
I text my boss… no answer. I call him… his phone is going straight to voicemail. At this point i’m getting irritated and the intercom lady says I have to make a u-turn. I’m thinking, this is making me look so bad. I can’t even gain access to a community of a property we manage.
I let the client know that I’ll contact my boss to see whats going on. I am seriously sitting in my car calling and texting him for about 20 minutes. Still nothing! The client comes up to my car, did I mention it was raining? She pretty much points out that I have one of the numbers wrong on my ad. At this point I feel stupid, and I’m annoyed because my boss is the one who makes these ads.
I drive up again and the intercom lady lets me in. We finally get to the property and as we come inside I apologize. As the showing comes to a close I apologize again for the mistake. And she says to me, “All’s well that ends well.” Until this very day I have never quite understood the meaning of that quote. The whole time I was stressed that the showing was ruined and she’s all smiles about it, I was just amazed.
I realize I’m the type of person that stresses and overthinks everything. I know to most people it’s annoying, but most don’t even realize how much it annoys me even more. But it’s part of who I am and even though I have learned to tone it down a bit, it’s not something I can turn off. The point is that I shouldn’t sweat the small stuff, as long as I get to where I need to be everything will be ok.